I've been Cross dressing in per for many years. Been listening to sissy hypno porn for a long time too. I think it's FINALLY taken hold of me. I think about cock all the time. Would love to have my first experience sucking and being fucked for real and not just this lifeless dildo. :) So a little more about my sissy hypno story. I stumbled onto some hypnosis videos about 6-7 years ago. Nothing too big at first. Just trying to have hands free orgasm type of stuff. Found myself listening to a few of them with dom women who started talking about sucking dildos ... then cocks ... then getting fucked. I found myself more and more turned on by all of it. I thought back to all the times when I was younger that I would try on girl clothes. And a few times that I would pretend like I was a woman. I would look at some porn and imagine what it would feel like to be that girl getting fucked. Never really thought much about sucking cock really. Was never really attracted to men. Just intrigued by the thought of being fucked. I had a girlfriend who really got into being fucked. She enjoyed it so much that I wanted to have that experience. All of those thoughts came back with the hypno vids. The more I watched (listened) the more I realized that cocks really turn me on. Every time I would think of sucking a cock I got so horny. NOW I can't even get turned on without thinking of a cock in my mouth or in my ass. (or both). I started sucking on dildos while watching the videos. More intense. I think about cock all the time now. Wondering what it will be like to swallow one and actually feel it deep in my throat. My dildo feels good deep inside my throat, but I'm sure a real cock will feel even better. I love getting to the point where I have a slight gag and I feel my throat clamp down on it and my whole body convulses. It makes my cock turn rock hard and I just want more. I want it deeper and deeper massaging my throat. I'm getting so horny thinking of it right now that I have to stop typing. Please ... TAKE ME.

My Ideal Person A clean man with enough patience to help me get past my initial shyness. I would REALLY like to find a man who is also in a DL situation but who can host. Ideally I would like to be able to be dressed up all girly when we meet. But if there is a place that I can do that quickly and step into the part that would work too. It would be great to have a love nest where I could keep things and get dressed up prior to meeting. So that I could really get into my gurly part. But like I said, I"m a little shy and I need someone to help me past that.