The End Product A Poem  

yesmamallthetime 55F  
4656 posts
10/20/2020 7:28 pm
The End Product A Poem

What is in my heart?
What is in my head?
Words fail to come
To do their bidding.
I fail in my attempts
For description.

A former lover
Now just a friend.
He is moving on
I feel somewhat bereft.
But did I not know
This would be happening?
For it happened before
When he broke up
With me the first time
Then we got together again
The ubiquitous term
Friends with benefit
Summing up our relationship.

There is caring there
But not enough love
For him to want me
For more than
An occasional liaison.
does that hurt
To know I do not
Measure up to his ideal.
Who am I kidding?
If I were someone else
I would similarly see myself.

He did give me hints
About what I needed
What I was missing
In his list of must have traits
But sadly I could not change
And bring about their appearance.
I am stuck in my ways
And circumstances.
I can barely navigate point A
Without falling on my .
Never mind attempt
The trek to point B
And what that will bring.

He knows well the devil
Of bad habits
He beat one of the worst
So while he has sympathy
He also knows it can be done.
If someone is motivated.

So all my failings
I could not fix them in a year
I am stuck
Like a stick in the mud.
Or a sword in a rock
Looking for that shining knight
With the magic touch.
Would that I was Dorothy
In the Wizard of Oz
And come to the conclusion
With the help of others
That what I really needed
Was within me all along.
I just needed to believe it
And tap my heels.
And tell myself
There is more to me
Than what I previously thought.

If it were all a dream
And I wake up
With a second chance
Would I have the wherewithal?
Would I magically see solutions
To long enduring problems?

I think he saw the futility
And all the wishful thinking on my part
Might have been a down payment
But I was never going to be able
To the end product.

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely

yesmamallthetime 55F  
11278 posts
10/20/2020 9:32 pm

Not too exciting eh?

Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely

Paulxx001 65M  
22616 posts
10/20/2020 11:48 pm

I hate it when we exchange lists. ūüė∂
I can never find what she's hoping for.

citizen4722 64M  
74582 posts
10/21/2020 1:04 pm

I hope you find that little bit of magic.
You are stuck in a moment right now.
Try to break free, don't make it quick.
You can do what your heart will allow.

rick315875 64M

1/6/2021 3:02 pm

I was cold I was dark I was night I was frozen emptiness despair I was lost there was only death in my eyes I wanted to disappear vanish from the face of the earth no longer be here I wanted to go away hide behind shadows

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