My week in review - I'm pretty sure that's a clinical problem :P  

partygald 39F
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1/20/2022 3:12 am

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My week in review - I'm pretty sure that's a clinical problem :P


I took the morning off today and went to the beach alone. I think I needed the space. Been spending a lot of time with Rene and I'm feeling a lot....claustrophobic. A lot of it is also my fault, so yeah. I blew him off last night specifically so I could hit the beach this morning. I got up at 5am, left the house quarter to 6am and was at the beach before 7am. I made a mental note to not swim, but I couldn't help myself. The swim was good, the sun was fantastic, but having to deal with other people being on the beach alone in a thong bikini wasn't that all fun. Maybe I just wasn't in the mood. But anyway. This morning was super therapeutic.

Like I said, Rene and I have been spending a lot of time together.It IS enjoyable, don't get me wrong. But we both also know it's really unhealthy for the both of us. We both want different things in this relationship but it's so fucking fun at the moment we can't help ourselves. But anyhow. Monday night, we met after work and he joined me in my workout in a crossfit gym. He's in very good shape so it wasn't too hard for him. We already spent the entire weekend together, mostly with me riding him, so I made a mental note to NOT go back to his place after the workout. I even mentioned it a few times to him.

We got through the workout without any hitch, then as we were walking back, we had to take an alley to get to where we were planning to get our dinner. I was on my phone trying to reply a few messages when he grabbed me from behind, lifted me off my feet, and started kissing and biting my neck. Of course I screamed . He put me down against a wall, and slid his hand to the front of my shorts, rubbing my crotch. It must have been the workout, the smell of his sweat, our sweaty bodies sliding against each other...probably all of the above; I reached down behind me and grabbed his dick through his shorts. I then told him to order food and get it delivered to my place, and I grabbed a cab. So yeah, we spent Monday night at my place :S

He left early on Tuesday morning and we didn't get much sleep. I got into office groggier and crankier than usual, and I was talking to a colleague of mine during lunch in the pantry when Rene walked in, talking to another of my colleague. He was there for work, and we didn't do a really good job of not being....weird about it . But anyhow. I was explaining to my colleague about how my husband is stuck abroad at the moment (of all the things I could have ben discussing, Rene walks in on this ) Of course my colleague started asking if I miss him and all and I said of course I do, and the conversation continued as such. I could see from the corner of my eye that Rene was listening in too. I didn't think too much about it after cos I was distracted with work.

He then texted me later that evening, asking what time I'll be over (yeaaaah...we have come to that stage ). I told him I had a call with the husband that night so I'll be taking that at home. (I did. But I also had a call with the boyfriend too...) He didn't message back, and by the time I got to his place, it was past 10pm. He was all sulky by the time I got there. Then I realised that he had prepped dinner and I missed it. I kinda felt bad about that, but mostly horny cos I had great talk with the husband (which is always, always nice), then another one with the boyfriend so..that really got me in the mood. I didn't really want to talk to Rene cos by that time, I was all "talked" out, although I kinda sensed that he did. So I did the next best thing. I sat on the floor in front of him while he was on the couch, leaned back and teased him with my feet. LOL

I slid my feet up and down the inside of his thighs first, then nudged his balls gently, then his already hard dick. I told him to keep watching the tv, and I pulled his pants down, and jerked him off with my feet. Don't know how other people do it, but gain damn that's a killer ab and thigh workout right there. LOL. My abs and thighs were burning by the time I dragged him into the shower with me. I didn't ride him that night, and let him pin me down mostly. We didn't even get to any of the standing sex. Heh. Yeah, no "koala time". But he gives a good dicking so...can't complain.

So, Wednesday came. I left for work from his place and already, for some reason, felt very constricted. I don't think it's anything he did that was out of the ordinary that caused it, but I felt how I felt. We were supposed to meet for lunch again but I kinda had to take a break so I told him as much - that I was gonna take some time for myself for awhile. To be fair, he did give me my space but he also texted me a few times through the day, which I kinda ignored. I also ignored texts from the bf too so....not that it equates to anything. LOL. I think it's a combination of work being a total bitch, the fact that I'll be leaving the country soon, and a few other things that for some reason, surfaced that day.

By the time evening came, I was craving for a drink. Yeah, I was in that mood. I texted an old friend of mine. We've always stayed in contact but I haven't spoken or met her in a really long time but she's my go-to person for..... those naughty nights out. I asked her if she wanted to meet me for a drink or two. Or 15 maybe She told me she was actually going on a date that night, but being the good friend that she was, told me to come along. She'll even make it a double date. I just wanted a few drinks so I figured, I'll join her. Oh yea, I knew it was a terrible idea from the time I said yes

I ran back home, showered and dressed, and rushed to meet Angie and her date. Well, met my date too.
I threw on a halter top party dress, cos, why the fuck not right? When else was I ever gonna wear that. It was a relief everyone else dressed up too. We met about 8pm for dinner, and I can't even fucking remember my date's name now, but he was quite cute. A bit of a schmuck, but had a good sense of humour so, that helped. I don't know if the guy was Angie's steady partner but I've met him before with her too so dinner wasn't too awkward. Maybe the fact I kept knocking my drinks back played a huge part. Restaurants here close by 10pm so I kinda knew I was on a clock.

I also kinda expected that Angie would suggest going someplace else too, and by that stage I was past my 7th glass of wine. I had to lean into my date when we left the restaurant, which he gladly obliged, cupping his hands on my ass and all.
We ended up back at his place where I took in a few more glasses of whiskey and something...lol. He was trying to tell me about how special it was but I couldn't give two hoots. I just downed them. The only thing it helped was numbing the tastebuds cos a real short while later I had his dick in my mouth. . He returned the favour by going down on me but I was too buzzed to enjoy it so...I actually can't say if he was good or not. Heh. But, he started fingering me, first with two fingers, then he slid three in, and was trying to slide in one more when I told him to stop. He did, but tried again like a few seconds later, and I kicked him in the chest. I was kinda aiming for his shoulder but missed. LOL. He got the message after that.

I remember him slipping the rubber on, I remember him keeping his shirt on too, but I mostly laid there for good ol missionary while trying to cum. He tried to lean in to kiss me a few times but I held on to his collars and...that's a pretty good way to control, actually. LOL Need to try that with Rene at some point, I think. I held him at bay and pulled him in as much as I could. I didn't cum -_- I only vaguely remember falling asleep but Angie woke me up early the next morning. He offered to send me home but I blatantly just ignored hm. That should make it obvious enough I'm not seeing him again.
I threw my dress on and made the walk of shame home. It's been....sooo fucking long since I've done that. It's....sobering. LOL

SO yeah. That was last night. I called in to tell them I'm taking half a day off, went back home to shower, pack and went straight to the beach. Every fucking time I get stressed. Hmm...

partygald 39F
1963 posts
1/20/2022 3:12 am

I took the morning off today and went to the beach alone. I think I needed the space. Been spending a lot of time with Rene and I'm feeling a lot....claustrophobic. A lot of it is also my fault, so yeah. I blew him off last night specifically so I could hit the beach this morning. I got up at 5am, left the house quarter to 6am and was at the beach before 7am. I made a mental note to not swim, but I couldn't help myself. The swim was good, the sun was fantastic, but having to deal with other people being on the beach alone in a thong bikini wasn't that all fun. Maybe I just wasn't in the mood. But anyway. This morning was super therapeutic.

Like I said, Rene and I have been spending a lot of time together.It IS enjoyable, don't get me wrong. But we both also know it's really unhealthy for the both of us. We both want different things in this relationship but it's so fucking fun at the moment we can't help ourselves. But anyhow. Monday night, we met after work and he joined me in my workout in a crossfit gym. He's in very good shape so it wasn't too hard for him. We already spent the entire weekend together, mostly with me riding him, so I made a mental note to NOT go back to his place after the workout. I even mentioned it a few times to him.

We got through the workout without any hitch, then as we were walking back, we had to take an alley to get to where we were planning to get our dinner. I was on my phone trying to reply a few messages when he grabbed me from behind, lifted me off my feet, and started kissing and biting my neck. Of course I screamed . He put me down against a wall, and slid his hand to the front of my shorts, rubbing my crotch. It must have been the workout, the smell of his sweat, our sweaty bodies sliding against each other...probably all of the above; I reached down behind me and grabbed his dick through his shorts. I then told him to order food and get it delivered to my place, and I grabbed a cab. So yeah, we spent Monday night at my place :S

He left early on Tuesday morning and we didn't get much sleep. I got into office groggier and crankier than usual, and I was talking to a colleague of mine during lunch in the pantry when Rene walked in, talking to another of my colleague. He was there for work, and we didn't do a really good job of not being....weird about it . But anyhow. I was explaining to my colleague about how my husband is stuck abroad at the moment (of all the things I could have ben discussing, Rene walks in on this ) Of course my colleague started asking if I miss him and all and I said of course I do, and the conversation continued as such. I could see from the corner of my eye that Rene was listening in too. I didn't think too much about it after cos I was distracted with work.

He then texted me later that evening, asking what time I'll be over (yeaaaah...we have come to that stage ). I told him I had a call with the husband that night so I'll be taking that at home. (I did. But I also had a call with the boyfriend too...) He didn't message back, and by the time I got to his place, it was past 10pm. He was all sulky by the time I got there. Then I realised that he had prepped dinner and I missed it. I kinda felt bad about that, but mostly horny cos I had great talk with the husband (which is always, always nice), then another one with the boyfriend so..that really got me in the mood. I didn't really want to talk to Rene cos by that time, I was all "talked" out, although I kinda sensed that he did. So I did the next best thing. I sat on the floor in front of him while he was on the couch, leaned back and teased him with my feet. LOL

I slid my feet up and down the inside of his thighs first, then nudged his balls gently, then his already hard dick. I told him to keep watching the tv, and I pulled his pants down, and jerked him off with my feet. Don't know how other people do it, but gain damn that's a killer ab and thigh workout right there. LOL. My abs and thighs were burning by the time I dragged him into the shower with me. I didn't ride him that night, and let him pin me down mostly. We didn't even get to any of the standing sex. Heh. Yeah, no "koala time". But he gives a good dicking so...can't complain.

So, Wednesday came. I left for work from his place and already, for some reason, felt very constricted. I don't think it's anything he did that was out of the ordinary that caused it, but I felt how I felt. We were supposed to meet for lunch again but I kinda had to take a break so I told him as much - that I was gonna take some time for myself for awhile. To be fair, he did give me my space but he also texted me a few times through the day, which I kinda ignored. I also ignored texts from the bf too so....not that it equates to anything. LOL. I think it's a combination of work being a total bitch, the fact that I'll be leaving the country soon, and a few other things that for some reason, surfaced that day.

By the time evening came, I was craving for a drink. Yeah, I was in that mood. I texted an old friend of mine. We've always stayed in contact but I haven't spoken or met her in a really long time but she's my go-to person for..... those naughty nights out. I asked her if she wanted to meet me for a drink or two. Or 15 maybe She told me she was actually going on a date that night, but being the good friend that she was, told me to come along. She'll even make it a double date. I just wanted a few drinks so I figured, I'll join her. Oh yea, I knew it was a terrible idea from the time I said yes

I ran back home, showered and dressed, and rushed to meet Angie and her date. Well, met my date too.
I threw on a halter top party dress, cos, why the fuck not right? When else was I ever gonna wear that. It was a relief everyone else dressed up too. We met about 8pm for dinner, and I can't even fucking remember my date's name now, but he was quite cute. A bit of a schmuck, but had a good sense of humour so, that helped. I don't know if the guy was Angie's steady partner but I've met him before with her too so dinner wasn't too awkward. Maybe the fact I kept knocking my drinks back played a huge part. Restaurants here close by 10pm so I kinda knew I was on a clock.

I also kinda expected that Angie would suggest going someplace else too, and by that stage I was past my 7th glass of wine. I had to lean into my date when we left the restaurant, which he gladly obliged, cupping his hands on my ass and all.
We ended up back at his place where I took in a few more glasses of whiskey and something...lol. He was trying to tell me about how special it was but I couldn't give two hoots. I just downed them. The only thing it helped was numbing the tastebuds cos a real short while later I had his dick in my mouth. . He returned the favour by going down on me but I was too buzzed to enjoy it so...I actually can't say if he was good or not. Heh. But, he started fingering me, first with two fingers, then he slid three in, and was trying to slide in one more when I told him to stop. He did, but tried again like a few seconds later, and I kicked him in the chest. I was kinda aiming for his shoulder but missed. LOL. He got the message after that.

I remember him slipping the rubber on, I remember him keeping his shirt on too, but I mostly laid there for good ol missionary while trying to cum. He tried to lean in to kiss me a few times but I held on to his collars and...that's a pretty good way to control, actually. LOL Need to try that with Rene at some point, I think. I held him at bay and pulled him in as much as I could. I didn't cum -_- I only vaguely remember falling asleep but Angie woke me up early the next morning. He offered to send me home but I blatantly just ignored hm. That should make it obvious enough I'm not seeing him again.
I threw my dress on and made the walk of shame home. It's been....sooo fucking long since I've done that. It's....sobering. LOL

SO yeah. That was last night. I called in to tell them I'm taking half a day off, went back home to shower, pack and went straight to the beach. Every fucking time I get stressed. Hmm...


partygald 39F
1963 posts
1/20/2022 3:16 am

Yeah, I'm aware it's not entirely fair to Rene, but...ah well. I had to fend off a ton of questions from him, but he knows not to push too much. Guess we'll just chalk this up to one more thing he's unhappy about in our little..."thing". I think I'll also need to buy Angie dinner one of these days We all need a friend like that


boobwhisperer69 59M  
8323 posts
1/20/2022 9:50 am

Sometimes we just need our space to work things out!!!! Maybe the drinks were a good thing? Sounds like you were not too into him!


staci_19702 51T  
3767 posts
1/20/2022 10:17 am

Wow. You sure pack a lot in!!

Have a great day! 💋
Staci


MyBaffies 52M
4983 posts
1/20/2022 3:14 pm

Sounds like Rene wants you full-time.

Baffies

Link to my blog: MyBaffies


ClitLickB4DickU 63M  
1392 posts
1/22/2022 7:02 pm

I guess that Blind Fuck Date was some kind of distraction from the complicated situation you've landed yourself in, or perhaps you were trying to punish yourself with an Anonymous Fuck, blow everything up? Who knows.....i'm not a therapist LOL

Loved your description of your Foot Job......I've experienced that myself

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danfunone69 36M
205 posts
1/22/2022 11:06 pm

I love reading your stories


discreteSteve62 49M  
2169 posts
1/28/2022 12:27 pm

Drinking before sex may be good for loosening up inhibitions, but it's not great for the sex. And how much do you need to loosen your inhibitions anyway?

Sorry if that sounds like old man telling you what to do, even if it kind of is. But I like sex way, way more than alcohol, so drinking beyond a light buzz is a bit of a mystery to me.

Anyway, other than lackluster sex, no harm resulted, so it's all good.

Also, applause to Angie for helping you get a change of scenery that you obviously needed.

Finally, nice to see that BlackSexMatch.com didn't screw up your message with the weird characters that pop up in some of them.


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