The Woman I can be..........
 
I joined BlackSexMatch.com to start a new journey. I had finally got my life and career where I wanted it but was lacking the sex life I needed. My blog documents the path I take while exploring the sexual pleasures I was missing. I want to see how kinky I will turn and how much pleasure I can stand before I explode in rapture. The path may be long and crooked but it will be an adventure better felt than refused.
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Fed up!!!!!
Posted:Apr 12, 2014 3:11 am
Last Updated:Apr 12, 2014 12:52 pm
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I am so fed up with being nice to men! If I act cautious and polite they beat down my door trying to win me over. Sending me texts several times a day to let me know they are thinking of me. Always have a good morning or good night text. Always saying they can't wait to see me again as soon as possible. Then as I get vested and be nice back, compliment them, and try to express my interest BOOM they become jerks! Texts start dying off, planned meets never happen, they would rather chat up others while I wait around for them to text, and when I ask if they are loosing interest it's "oh no I still like you". Ppfffftttttt actions speak louder than words and I'm not sitting around like some pathetic needy woman waiting for a crumb of affection. Fullsize is no fool and my gut tells me to stop trying when it looks like I'm going to come out on the loosing end of this one.
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Time marches on.....
Posted:Mar 26, 2014 7:30 pm
Last Updated:Apr 12, 2014 3:11 am
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I recently turned 36 and like most people it got me thinking about my life. I'm not your typical woman since I have never been married and have no . I followed my own beat and did things my way which included being very guarded with my heart. With this in mind I can honestly say I'm not sure if I have ever been in love. Sure I have had relationships: long, short, and in between. How do you know if you are in love? I thought in my last relationship I was but in the end I realized he was convenient and didn't ask for too much emotionally. I also realized each relationship was with a man that guaranteed it would fail. I'm at a cross roads mentally that says " step off the normal path you have been on and head towards the sun". The "sun" for me is someone who is like no other I have ever been with in regards to personality, looks, and life. It's too soon to tell anything but I do believe I will walk towards the sun and let it warm me up thawing my emotions.
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Disappointment
Posted:Mar 14, 2014 12:36 am
Last Updated:Apr 12, 2014 3:38 am
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My past experiences with men have had bad endings. I was either too open, too honest, too trusting, or too blind. I am a hesitant person to begin with and it takes a while for me to let down my guard and trust someone. I always have this little voice in the back of my head that chants "too good to be true". Until recently that was no problem because the men I met were straight up "let's meet, let's fuck, goodbye" type of guys who rarely threw out compliments besides how nice my pussy was. That was fine because I got what I wanted which was orgasms with a live human instead of a lifeless toy. I'm a very assertive and confident woman with the world but I'm a regular afraid to hope type of woman when it comes to the bedroom. I don't look for praise about my looks, my body, or my brain when in bed with a meet from here. Sure it would be wonderful to connect with someone who sincerely felt that way towards me. I recently had that one in a million meet where it happened. Shocking was the mild version of my reaction to the compliments I got. Quietly I was asking myself "what was the catch?" it can't be true especially towards me. After a little time I started believing it and thought maybe he did really see me as special and beautiful. Then I saw a post that led to a group that led to comments posted to other women. Nope I'm not special cause all the others were beautiful and sexy too. All were smart and wonderful just like me. The higher the pedestal the harder the fall. I just happened to be the fat girl who responded to the message and fucked.
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Scared of reality
Posted:Feb 23, 2014 12:47 pm
Last Updated:Mar 14, 2014 12:16 am
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I am shocked at the number of men who are scared of reality. By that I mean they hide behind their keyboards and cams talking up their sexual talents but never deliver in real life. I'm going to start a list of these men from my area so that no one else has to waste their time thinking a meet is going to happen. This is a sad reality on this site and I'm always amazed at the men I meet who are shocked I showed up. If I schedule a meet I show up unless work gets in the way. We are all adults on a sex site so we should be able to be honest with each other. If it's your thing to fantasize about meeting and what you want to do that's fine just explain that up front. Women also need to stop this practice also. Guess I'm lucky I'm not trying to hook up everyday or most of my time will be in vain.
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I can't please ME?!?!
Posted:Nov 28, 2013 1:53 am
Last Updated:Mar 14, 2014 4:02 am
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I wanted to take a minute to figure out when my role on this site went from doing things that gave ME pleasure to trying to accommodate every male who wants too hook up. I wanted to find a decent FWB who I could be friends with and fuck when I needed to work out some stress. Now it seems in my search to find that I must reply to every message and instant message as if I am grateful the sender bothered to contact me. I must be polite at all times regardless of the crude, rude, and down right insulting things sent to me. I have a pussy right therefore it should be able to meet at a moments notice no matter how far or when it's needed. It also seems that I should automatically send every pic and video I have to the sender while giving a detailed list of my wants that will be eventually dismissed in favor if the senders wishes. Yes I would love for you to cum in my eye and in my hair. I don't need to see anyway just lay back and take what I get. Sure I think I can overlook that you are older than my mom and might die during sex but hey that's the excitement I need. No I have never wanted to be a man and fuck another man in the ass but what the hell I need to hone my strap on skills. I'm sorry I pay for the ability to see profiles that have nothing on them and I just love repeating my profile information 30 times in a day. Why should I be upset that I wasted 3 hours texting you and getting to know one another for you to get mad I won't blow off my job and come see you for the weekend. I know it was rude of me to expect you to continue to chat with me after I was not accommodating. Yes I chatted with you, texted, and faked my role in our cyber sex but I didn't realize I was not suppose to actually want to meet in person. I who is willing to meet for sex can't seem to find one male who will grow a pair and fuck. Maybe I'm overlooking a group more available like the very young or couples. I may end up having to eat pussy to get a dick shoved up me.
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Is everyone afraid?
Posted:Nov 20, 2013 11:32 am
Last Updated:Mar 14, 2014 4:02 am
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I never thought the day would come that I can't find sex. I'm on a site that is designed to hook up people for sex. So what is the deal? First it was a sudden finding of morals that would not let a guy screw me while these same morals said he could get a blow job. That seems totally one sided to me. If all you want is someone to suck your dick go find a glory hole and quit putting yourself out there for anything else. Be real be honest. I know sex is mainly about fantasy and imagination but enough is enough. If you are too insecure and scared say so. Next its a man who wants a mother not a lover. If you have a woman come over, get naked, and lay in bed next to you then you fall asleep with doing nothing TWICE!!!! You got a problem. Don't insist on chatting and hanging out just to drop the ball. We are all adults on here and should be able to be upfront and honest with not only ourselves but each other. Yes I have been very choosy on who I even chatted with much less tried to meet but I'm up front and not a cum dumpster for every dick on here. I got my reasons for why I'm on this site and it does not include being played with by men who really need intensive therapy to work on issues having nothing to do with sex. Guy #1 quit putting yourself out there if you can't follow thru. Guy #2 yes I realized you were a closet alcoholic who comes home every night to a big lonely house and your liquor bottle. I'm putting it in your face: YOU HAVE A PROBLEM. Work on those issues because being too shit faced to get it up every time a woman comes over is not going to help you find someone to stay with you. I'm not perfect. I have some serious trust and body issues but I'm putting myself out there truthfully. Do the same.
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Older and wiser
Posted:Oct 30, 2013 9:40 pm
Last Updated:Nov 28, 2013 1:56 am
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I'm back on BlackSexMatch.com after a 3 year break where many things changed. I took a break from dating and a 2 year break from sex. YES I said 2 years! I guess you can say I'm wiser this time around aka more selective. I know I can get dick anytime I want so I can afford to remain quiet and watchful. I know many if you send me messages and flirt but I usually don't have the time to reply and chat. I will be more available starting next week so if you are truly interested in a chunky woman drop me a line. I will warn you that if you are a cocky player keep stepping. I believe in having fun without having to prove anything. And for those who wonder what's my deal.... no I don't want to ever marry or have so no I'm not trying to trap me a husband or baby daddy.
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2009
Posted:Jan 1, 2009 8:22 pm
Last Updated:Feb 25, 2009 9:40 pm
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What to do in 2009??

Well I need to look around and see what needs to be fixed. First off would be a goal of having more sex......can never have too much lol. I want my coochie to be smoking and screaming for mercy ATLEAST once a month. NO going a couple months without sex. Next would be to get a certain someone trained completely. He is almost trained cause now he just puts up with my bitching and actually tries to make amends when he acts like a major butthead. I also need to look into the foreign drug market. I need hormones or whatever it is you can order on the web from China that will make ya boobs balloon up. Im too cheap to go thru my doctor and pay out the ass plus surgery is definitely out. Of course I always need money. Maybe if I work 24/7 at both jobs for 3 months I can be out of debt plus will probably have straight redbull for blood. Oh if anyone who reads this actually has money in this sucky economy and feels like donating to the "Fullsize" charity fund let me know lmao. My list is so far short and sweet. Good luck to everyone else who does the same shit on January 1st of every year
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Is there a VIRUS going around BlackSexMatch.com????
Posted:Oct 28, 2008 9:10 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2009 8:10 pm
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I have been busy lately I admit but damn how many peeps from here getting married now??? I will say that yes I am a commitment phobe......keep it simple and not too fussy. I am happy for all those who are recently deciding to marry peeps they met on here. I am so cynical against marriage.........mother & father, a brother on #2, hell folks I went to high school with on their 2nd and 3rd marriages. And I guess deep down I dont want to risk committing myself to something that huge then watch them run away crushing me. No one lasts forever and to me its easier to just avoid the whole thing.........coward to some but coping mechanism for me. After being raised by grandparents and asking why my mom and dad didnt love me enough to raise me I dont trust anyone enough for that. My mom is now a close part of my life but I always hold something back. Hell I got grandparents I havent seen in years but thats a whole nother drama in itself. So I ask how does someone meet and decide to marry someone from an internet site. I know a few couples who are cool to chat with and seem so happy who are about to marry. I wish them luck and happiness but dont give me their "marriage" cooties. Now some know why I see Tune.......never have to worry about being asked to marry roffff.
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Woo Hoo I'm a squirter now
Posted:Sep 28, 2008 6:52 pm
Last Updated:Oct 28, 2008 9:00 pm
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I have heard women talk about and describe the skill of squirting. I thought it sounded interesting but didn't know really what they meant. I can now say I know how it feels to be a squirter. Last night me and Tune made up in the best way.......... lots of sex . He requested his favorite position the reverse cowgirl. I love this position because my legs are spread so I have easy access to my clit. I was riding away while he played with my ass when I reached down and started rubbing my clit. Next thing I know the most powerful orgasms ever ripped through me and it was like a flood gate opened . All I could think was "oh shit did I piss myself"? But then I realized what I did and was amazed. I asked Tune could he guess what I did and he replied "you squirted" because he felt in run down his leg. Lawd was that man happy rofffff . And the couple other times that night I squirted again also helped his ego swell . So now I know what it means to squirt and to bring towels to the bed lmao. Another unique experience learned on my journey through exploring my sexuality complete.
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9 Words Women Use..........all men should read lol
Posted:Aug 20, 2008 7:01 pm
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2013 10:11 pm
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9 WORDS WOMEN USE

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument
when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an
hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just
been given five more minutes to watch the game before
helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in
fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she
is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about
nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and
when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're
welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' ... that will bring on a 'whatever').

( Whatever: Is a women's way of saying SCREW YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it. Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.
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Just My Luck..........
Posted:Jun 1, 2008 11:30 pm
Last Updated:Mar 14, 2014 4:06 am
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I know this site has hundreds hell thousands of people on it from all over the world, but why is it that if I actually find a cute guy who lives remotely near me it never works out. They always send an email and ask for my hoo so we can chat (which is cool). But they chat once or twice and BOOM gone. Yeah I understand life is hectic and sometimes its hard to find time to chat but damn. I see men all the time acting like jerks in the chat rooms saying women wont meet but jeeze I put forth some effort and try to connect with a guy and they are the non-meeting mfers. Yes I do require chatting with a guy before I decide if it will go further but I'm not asking for their life story or any kind of commitment. I just want to find a decent guy who is fun to talk with and isn't missing brain cells. I have to be comfortable with a guy to fuck and I am looking for a fuck "buddy" which requires some sort of friendship. I know I'm not Miss America or a barbie doll but I am honest and will say if based on pics and personality it wont work out so I expect the same. I have face pics to share in private with guys but the ones I am intrigued by don't make it to that point. Hell tonight a new potential friend was suppose to chat with me on the hoo for the first time but he logged on and immediately logged off. Was it the face pic I have on my hoo that scared him away?? If so just say it. I'm a big girl and can take it LOL. Maybe I should just carry around some paper bags. I can put on over his head and he can put one over mine so we can get down to business........SEX!!!!! >>!Fellas if you initiate something with a woman follow thru don't disappear or soon we all gonna stop trying.
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Love Poems
Posted:Apr 25, 2008 8:31 pm
Last Updated:Apr 25, 2008 8:32 pm
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Women's Love Poem
Before I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man, who's not a creep,
One who's handsome, smart and strong
One who loves to listen long,
One who thinks before he speaks,
One who'll call, not wait for weeks.
I pray he's gainfully employed,
When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed.
Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages my back and begs to do more.
Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind,
Knows what to answer to 'how big is my behind?'
I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And always be my very best friend.


Men's Love Poem
I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with
huge boobs who owns a bar on a golf course,
and loves to send me fishing and hunting. This
doesn't rhyme and I don't give a shit
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