Mid-Week  

TippyToes59 65M
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12/14/2021 11:11 pm
Mid-Week

Seems like for some reason I just can't sleep past one or two in the morning anymore these days. It could be due to my habit of going to bed at seven or eight in the morning, I suppose!

I've always loved the early-morning hours, but in recent years they seem to have become an obsession.

Don't know WHEN the last time I got a 'normal night's sleep' was.

Finally got the trash out and the cat's litterbox cleaned out last night, so at least it no longer stinks downstairs.

I enjoy watching porn, and have since I've been here on The Cape, especially lesbian tubes of all kinds and interracial flicks, imagining what it might be like to be a beautiful women on the receiving end of either situation. . . .

I guess that's why I love the idea of<b> making love </font></b>to Doug sometime (SOON!), feeling his hard cock in my hand, my mouth, my ass. . . .kissing him passionately..................

I must note, however, that he's the ONLY other man I've loved at all or really wanted to give my body to (though what he sees in me or my fat, old body, I'll NEVER understand!).

Payday on Friday morning. I'm behind on my Pay Pal Credit due to a double bill this month from Verizon, paying for Bambi's present, aquarium gear, etc. That and my half of this month's car payment is also due. I have no idea how much the former will be to catch up on, or IF I'll be able to make the entire payment to Bambi (who's already made the first payment on Lucy); depends on how much my check from HAC is on the 17th.

I have a fair sum left in the bank, a $40 gift card from last XMas, and $20 available on my Mastercard for emergencies ONLY.

Planning on FINALLY getting Betsy Blue inspected sometime Friday, as well.

Once her right knee's fully healed, I intend to get sexually active with Bambi again, after several years' abstinence. Enough is enough, after all. That, however, is at LEAST a month or two in the future, I know.

That, and I also intend to get active in the gym I've had a membership to for about two months now. Lots of work to do on this fat old body if I'm going to ride Spooky regularly this season and improve my overall health!!!!!!

I don't celebrate XMas for reasons of my own, which I'm not comfortable going into here yet. Sorry, Doug. . . . .

Missing Lisa, even if she WAS a fake profile. Some people just touch you deeply, despite your defenses, even though you KNOW better, you know?

Her and Fatou from Gambia, although that was a fucked up relationship from the start1

Could it be that I'm NOT entirely dead emotionally, after all?

Perhaps there's HOPE yet for me. . . . . . . .

"Always wanting something more. . . . . .".







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