Damn, Damn, Damn!  

gymrat1974 49F  
1056 posts
7/5/2020 1:17 pm
Damn, Damn, Damn!


I feel this intense sadness
mixed with an urgency do something
I need escape you
Outrun you
Outlast you
Flee from you
Capture you
It’s this crazy combination of anguish and despair
and longing and desire
I have avoid it
I have run headlong into it
I want you
I hate you
I need you
I don’t know you
At
And yet you consume my thoughts
My daydreams, my fantasies
My nightmares revolve around you
I’m filled with notions of what you can offer me
And that I stand lose for the love of you
And I can’t do anything but run from you and hope one day I will walk right into your arms.

clittywhisperer1 59M
1415 posts
7/5/2020 8:04 pm

I have run from that intense connection ,for self preservation ,to forget it , to avoid it , guess what. trying to substitute for it did not work.It remained deep within all of me despite my denial; , it continued to for years and years , until i gave in and reconnected despite fear of either outcome , it could consume me again or it could save me .the hope of the positive far outweighed the fear of the negative ,the waiting to see the outcome is now happening .we will be in each others arms eventually


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